Where does one start writing about dark days…
On dark days all one wants to do is stop…
To stop doing,
To stop the darkness from being all encompassing,
To just stop.
Dark days are days where getting out of bed and taking a shower takes on climbing Mount Everest proportions.
You could have been on top of the world the previous day but then a dark day just happens and knocks you off your stride.
Out of the blue you have the blues.
Scratch that, ‘the blues’ is not this.
This is stay under the covers, switch off the phones, and gallantly try to fight off the cloud that threatens to suffocate you.
While fending off curious looks and offhand statements – “these are white people problems.”, “just shake it off.”, “just cheer up.”
Then just as randomly as a dark day comes, a dark day goes.
Until the next dark day. (Day may be one or many days.)
In the last one month, a friend checked herself out of this planet and another failed in her attempt to check out.
In the same duration someone challenged me why dark days are not written about, talked about and why checking out is shrouded in such secrecy.
Got me thinking…
In one of Chinua Achebe’s books a lady makes a profound statement, “I do not have the mouth to tell the story”.
Because at times folk may be living out a situation but the circumstances of the situation makes them unable to express the essence of the situation.
Also, there is societal baggage.
‘I have a cold’ does not attract judging, stigma or side-eyes as saying ‘I have dark days.’
That is how we are, who we are.
So darks days are hidden, battled with individually, with fatal consequences sometimes.
And the all-round silence on the dark days or the fatalities persists.
Hopefully, one day dark days will be talked about openly.
Then maybe hopefully checking out from this planet will not be so prevalent.
Until then lemme share these gems I stumbled on:
“Never give in to sadness. It won’t last forever. The broken pieces of life will fit itself into a puzzle once again. Have faith. Have hope.”
“Reach out. Not on WhatsApp, text, social media. Really reach out. Feel like this needs saying a lot. People be shouldering heavy loads.”
And this oft repeated quote,
“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.”
Pray that someone in the middle of a dark day will read this and get that little extra strength to fight off the suffocating darkness.
Also pray that for those who deal with folk with dark days will read this and get a glimmer of understanding about dark days.
GOD BLESS KENYA.